Lily Allen says she decided to get sober after she considered taking heroin while on tour with Miley Cyrus
Lily Allen shared her past addictions and struggles on The Recovery podcast. Chelsea Guglielmino / Getty Imags
35-year-old singer Lily Allen spoke to DJ Fat Tony about her addiction on The Recovery podcast.
She revealed that performing as opening act on Miley Cyrus' Bangerz tour in 2014 negatively affected her mental health.
Allen described how he became addicted to Adderall and said she was considering using heroin at some point.
She also said she started drinking at a young age and became "codependent".
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Lily Allen decided to sober up after considering using heroin while performing on Miley Cyrus' Bangerz tour in 2014.
While speaking with DJ Fat Tony on The Recovery podcast, Allen shared about her journey to sobriety and the obstacles she had overcome along the way.
Allen, 35, remembered her opening act on the Bangerz tour as particularly difficult and said she doesn't feel like a pop star at all.
"I felt really worthless and drugs and alcohol made me feel the opposite," said the "Smile" singer.
Allen said she was forced to tour with her ex-husband Sam Cooper about six months after giving birth to their second child when the family was dependent on cash. The couple married when Allen was 24 years old and had two daughters: 9-year-old Ethel and 8-year-old Marnie.
"We were kind of out of money and I had to get back on the streets, but I was 14-stone [196 lbs] and didn't feel like a pop star at all," said Allen, who is currently married to actor David Harbor.
"So I started taking this drug called Adderall, which is like speed to lose weight. And then I got addicted to this drug because it made me invincible and I could work really long hours and be all the different people that who I was must be at the time, "she added.
Allen's addiction worsened on the American leg of the 2014 Bangerz Tour.
"It was a very highly sexualized tour and I had just spent the last three years pushing babies out. It couldn't have been any less than how I was feeling," Allen said.
"And besides, I had never supported anyone. So I was like going back into that phase of pop star, but no longer on my terms. I supported this girl who was much younger and more attractive than I felt and I did just got started in all possible ways, "she added.
Lily Allen performs at Bridgestone Arena on August 7th, 2014 in Nashville, Tennessee. Frederick Breedon IV / WireImage
According to Allen, cheating on Cooper and falling further into alcoholism included cheating.
Allen said that she previously drank alcohol to get rid of the drugs, but during that time she found that she "got up in the morning, went straight to the minibar, and drank those little bottles of vodka ... without the drugs."
"I remember being in LA thinking, 'None of this works anymore. Maybe I should try heroin," Allen said.
She continued, "I had been in a scene where I saw what was happening to people using heroin and knew when that thought hit my head it was time to confront my demons. And that was it it about five years ago. And I started recovering. "
But Allen said she was not fully committed to recovery at the time and returned to drinking alcohol about six months after the cleanse.
"I lost everything almost instantly," said Allen.
"I lost my marriage. I lost my house. I worked to buy it for 10 years. My career began to decline. I lost all of my friends - I didn't have any of my friendships anymore. I was so angry and." so angry." I really felt the world owed me, "she said, adding," it was another four years. "
Allen revealed that her addiction began at a young age
Allen, whom Zoe Kravitz said she gave her a non-consensual kiss in 2014, said her addiction began when she became "addicted" to alcohol in school.
"I've started getting my worth from the attention of others, and that really turned out to be a relatively short time ago," said Allen.
"All I wanted was approval and praise, and I didn't really get it at the time. I got it from strangers, but I didn't really get it from the people I wanted it from," she added.
Allen admitted that she "definitely buried my head in drugs and alcohol, but I was really sad."
Lily Allen attended the 2014 BRIT Awards, which she also opened for Miley Cyrus. Matt Kent / Getty Images
Allen wants to break the cycle for their two daughters
In July 2020, Allen shared a bikini photo on her Instagram account to celebrate a year sober.
"So grateful for my health and happiness," she wrote in the headline.
Allen told DJ Fat Tony that she is currently focused on her sobriety and building healthy relationships with her daughters.
"I'm about to break this cycle. I felt so guilty for neglecting my kids in those early years of their lives and for having to go on tour and behave as badly as I was. I really do have one great relationship with my kids now, "said Allen.
"They are confident little girls. They are not going to be drug addicts like me. They are well on their way," she added.
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